Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Good morning twinkies

I awoke to this conversation between the twins in my bed this morning
P: why did you wake me up Veda
V: because I wanted to play with you, have fun, and laugh with you Parley........I have an idea let's take my bed and slide down the stairs

They started laughing and I had to object to the mattress down the stairs idea

Saturday, October 18, 2014

I wrote this on Mother's Day this year

I spent the night before my first motherless Mother's Day writing this talk I don't know why other than that I wanted something to think about while I listened to all the wonderful stories about my friends mothers that day....

 I believe as The Family: A Proclamation to the World states, Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of their children. 

I also believe as our circumstances as women as a whole vary so very much our "mother" nurturing influence can and should extend beyond the walls of our own homes.  

I found myself all to recently standing at the pulpit of a packed even into the overflow of a stake center, speaking of my dear mother after she had left mortality.  I was astonished by the number of people present with whom I had no prior acquaintance.  Most of these people whom to me will ever remain nameless, spoke to me of how my mother nurtured them through their darkest hours, her career as a marriage & family, adolescent , & child counselor had given her countless opportunities to nurture her fellow man.  

We all of us have opportunities to nurture those around us.  This nurturing I believe if we go about it as we should can turn into the pure love of Christ expressed through us his servants.   

In his most recent conference address Pres. Utchdorf spoke these words which have been to me as they were emblazoned upon my heart."How blessed we are if we recognize God’s handiwork in the marvelous tapestry of life. Gratitude to our Father in Heaven broadens our perception and clears our vision. It inspires humility and fosters empathy toward our fellowmen and all of God’s creation. Gratitude is a catalyst to all Christlike attributes (Grateful in Any Circumstances)

I know that if we will but use our experiences to create in us that empathy President Utchdorf says will clear our vision and broaden our perception that as Mothers, women, and nurtures one day our lives will follow the Saviors own words in Moses 6:63
63 And behold, all things have their likeness, and all things are created and made to bear record of me, both things which are temporal, and things which are spiritual; things which are in the heavens above, and things which are on the earth, and things which are in the earth, and things which are under the earth, both above and beneath: all things bear record of me.

I know all of my imperfection and I have a lot of them but I know as the Savior himself said I have been created to bear record of Him.  

I know that as I exercise the unique ability to nurture given to our Heavenly Fathers daughters here on earth I will continue increase my knowledge of Him & 
His ways.  I know my Savior lives!  I know through the atonement His empathy for us is complete and I know if we are able to take the grief and trials that our given to us in this life & use them to nurture our fellow men we will be filled with the true love of Christ.  I know on this day that is a celebration of mothers, I celebrate more women than just the one who raised me, I find myself celebrating so many of the women who have impact fully touched my life.  I know women hood is indeed sacred & that I love God & this Gospel and hope as I continue to grow and learn that I will become a more profitable servant.



and.... These are the words I spake at the funeral of the women I love most

"In my mother's eyes 
I am strong and wise and I know no fear.  But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me. I see who I wanna be.  In my mother's eyes. In my mother's eyes everyone is equal.  Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace. This miracle God gave to me gives me strength when I am weak. I find reason to believe . In my mother's eyes
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hanging on when your heart
has had enough It's giving more when you feel like giving up. I've seen the light. It's in my mother's eyes. In my mother's eyes I can see the future A reflection of who I can be. Though she's had leave I hope you see how happy she made me
 
  During the last month or so I've had the honor of helping  my mother and her ailing body, with an almost impossible amount of visitors in the last month or so the common thread In the comments regarding my mothers is her ability to see who each could be.  Of all the Christlike qualities to move to the next world with, this quality she posses is the true love of Christ.  I hope to find even a small percentage of this love, along with her wit, wisdom, intellect, charity, compassion some where in my genetic makeup.  Throughout me her genes flow and I feel now the task of claiming the heritage she has gifted me, I hope to become even a portion of what she is & by doing so I know I will feel her presence throughout my life.  She gifted so many with so much of herself and about few can truly be said we are better for having known her..she is truly that women, a women who left each person in her wake more whole and more capable.  I was given the best mother, and for that I will be forever thankful to my Heavenly Father. Until we meet again my eternal mom, I love you always"


So, it's been awhile

I need to blog, I came to my blog this morning to find a talk I'd written awhile ago.  I found... What I found was a piece of myself I've been missing!  I'm in a place now, personally that has felt dark & sadness has crept into my every part.  I need to have this part of me, this place where I can be funny, be sad, be where I am.... I truly think I have words more beautiful than silence now.  

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

coolest car man

it’s official..we are full fledged scouting parents…..and we have the derby car to prove itaphone marchapril 2011 047

Jaxson’s first derby car proved semi fast but in the end came home with the prize for being the COOLEST

and anyone who has had the pleasure to meet my little J knows that

Coolest

is the word which describes him best…congrats congrats to Jax

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ONE + ONE = Two One year olds

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the party all set up for the twins

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My friend Tara Hale who is an amazing seamstress/designer with impeccable taste made the twins amazing first birthday ensembles…check her shop out

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The twins had a great time besides the fact that they didn’t care for the caps much.  Then the party began….

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I made the cake fondant from a recipe on the web…just searched for marshmellow fondant

it tasted great…next time I would make it the day of because it looked so much better the first day

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Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

she walks the walk…..

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In the last month Veda has gone from walking….to WALKING if you know what I mean

she walks, pivots, and now climbs….sometimes Parley even takes a ride on the Veda train, he holds her hips and walks with her

what a wondrous girl…she is spunky and fabulous

 

HaPPy 11 MonThS VeDa rOSe !!!